Hi readers..
It was 6 am when i wrote this note, it was raining (hard, with awful thunders too) and i gotta chance to publish it now when baby Clav take his nap. I Hope this note could inspire you all.
Ok! So, what type a person are you? Do you care enough of your surroundings? Or just simply ignorant. I don't write to blame, some people are born in certain way and what makes them who they are today (the personalities, attitudes, how we eat, and all) simply influenced by their environment and society. It's our own will who could change who we are. Most of us would say, hey people can't change. It's in our blood and bla bla. For me, if we want to, we could. It depends on YOU!
this is.... the Story of BipolarCoffeeJunkie
Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love yourself. Show all posts
June 30, 2013
SUN DAMAGE 101
hi beautes..
after reading so many books about beauty awareness esp. Paula Begoun's BEAUTY BIBLE, i realized that the main cause of our skin problem is SUN RAYS!! i didn't really give a damn about this at first, i even spent whole week in Bali, playin' on the beach, all my life, with no protection of sun block at all.. i hate sun block, it's sticky and yucky on my skin.. but now that i know more and it frightening me like crazy, i hope it's not too late for me to make amends to my beloved skin.. ^^
after reading so many books about beauty awareness esp. Paula Begoun's BEAUTY BIBLE, i realized that the main cause of our skin problem is SUN RAYS!! i didn't really give a damn about this at first, i even spent whole week in Bali, playin' on the beach, all my life, with no protection of sun block at all.. i hate sun block, it's sticky and yucky on my skin.. but now that i know more and it frightening me like crazy, i hope it's not too late for me to make amends to my beloved skin.. ^^
February 14, 2013
Valentine's Day Dinner Makeup
hi babess..
today i wanna share to you a very romantic pinkish look inspired by Valentine's Day today.. so, if you already have a dinner plan with hubby, lover or even hang out with friends, you can check out my makeup and maybe you'd be inspired.. ^_^
today i wanna share to you a very romantic pinkish look inspired by Valentine's Day today.. so, if you already have a dinner plan with hubby, lover or even hang out with friends, you can check out my makeup and maybe you'd be inspired.. ^_^
the finished eye look..
August 03, 2012
SOLUSIMU -- Protect Yourself..
hi everyone..
did you know, that infection towards our urinary tract area could be a serious danger if we don't aware of it?? and this infection so easily get to us just as simple as by using public toilet.. you know there are millions and millions of germs and diseases in the toilet seats only??.. and yes, even the cleanest public bathroom can be a threat.. so we really really need to be careful and aware for the sake of our health..
but with busy schedule and lack of knowledge, sometime we just ignore the hygiene and do whatever so we could do our "business" faster.. and sticking a lot of tissue all around the toilet seat (like i use to do) sometimes could be a waste of time.. ;)
few weeks ago, i received this package by Solusimu.. it's a Disposable Toilet Seat Cover.. come with a very compact package, so small and easy to be taken everywhere, like a tissue pack.. i love it..
made from 100% soft virgin pulp that's environmentally friendly..
see how practical and convenient this product is.. so simple and easy to carry in my bag.. so i no longer need to worry about the toilet seats anymore and waste my time arranging those toilet papers.. this is a solution for us, for the better health.. and dear God, it's only cost you IDR 5000 per pack.. what's not to love.. ^_^
with Solusimu --- NOW YOU CAN SEAT IN PEACE!!! (damn i love their slogan..)...
for more info you can check on their web or facebook..
xoxo!
did you know, that infection towards our urinary tract area could be a serious danger if we don't aware of it?? and this infection so easily get to us just as simple as by using public toilet.. you know there are millions and millions of germs and diseases in the toilet seats only??.. and yes, even the cleanest public bathroom can be a threat.. so we really really need to be careful and aware for the sake of our health..
but with busy schedule and lack of knowledge, sometime we just ignore the hygiene and do whatever so we could do our "business" faster.. and sticking a lot of tissue all around the toilet seat (like i use to do) sometimes could be a waste of time.. ;)
few weeks ago, i received this package by Solusimu.. it's a Disposable Toilet Seat Cover.. come with a very compact package, so small and easy to be taken everywhere, like a tissue pack.. i love it..
each box contains 10 sheets..
made from 100% soft virgin pulp that's environmentally friendly..
100% biodegradable -- just flush it into toilet after usage and it will not cause clogging.. in fact this sheets are 4 times faster to dissolve in water compared to regular toilet tissue roll.. (LOVEEEE....) ^_^
HOW TO USE...
put it on my toilet seat..
see the width of the sheet.. it actually wide enough so you can easily move around without ruining the position.. ;)
see how practical and convenient this product is.. so simple and easy to carry in my bag.. so i no longer need to worry about the toilet seats anymore and waste my time arranging those toilet papers.. this is a solution for us, for the better health.. and dear God, it's only cost you IDR 5000 per pack.. what's not to love.. ^_^
with Solusimu --- NOW YOU CAN SEAT IN PEACE!!! (damn i love their slogan..)...
for more info you can check on their web or facebook..
xoxo!
June 18, 2012
L'OCCITANE Angelica Instant hydration Mask
hi everyone..
for now i wanna share to you about this new product from L'OCCITANE, the instant hydrating mask.. well, the word INSTANT seemed kinda exaggerated right? well, fortunately, it's not!!!
i tried it for the first time and fell in love right away.. the gel texture is so friendly for my combination-weirdo skin.. and what make it more fascinating is you just need to waste 3 minutes of your time to get soft, plump, dewy and yummy skin.. what's not to love, people??? and after 3 minutes just wipe it off with a toner or damp towel and you're done.. no need for rinse it..
do you know that my "old" face mask took about 15 minutes to dry and while waited you cannot smile or anything (bet you know the drill).. for holding a smile or even laugh kinda easy.. what's hard for me is to hold a yawn.. well, i cannot wear those kinda mask outside my room without AC, coz it's too hot outside and my mask will be ruined by my sweats.. so inside the cool room, closing my eyes, then YAWNING!!! and yesss, i cracked my mask.. my mom said if you cracked it, you'll get extra line instead of good skin.. oh noooo...
well, this Angelica baby is amazing.. it's elastic, so you can still do stuff.. even talking, laughing and of course, yawn!! LOL..
this product's made with organic angelica essential oil and angelica water.. which are rich in antioxidant and have a hyper-hydrating effect.. i love everything "Hydrate".. it fits me so well.. and the natural ingredients plus the soothing smell.. what a yummy product!
for now i wanna share to you about this new product from L'OCCITANE, the instant hydrating mask.. well, the word INSTANT seemed kinda exaggerated right? well, fortunately, it's not!!!
i tried it for the first time and fell in love right away.. the gel texture is so friendly for my combination-weirdo skin.. and what make it more fascinating is you just need to waste 3 minutes of your time to get soft, plump, dewy and yummy skin.. what's not to love, people??? and after 3 minutes just wipe it off with a toner or damp towel and you're done.. no need for rinse it..
do you know that my "old" face mask took about 15 minutes to dry and while waited you cannot smile or anything (bet you know the drill).. for holding a smile or even laugh kinda easy.. what's hard for me is to hold a yawn.. well, i cannot wear those kinda mask outside my room without AC, coz it's too hot outside and my mask will be ruined by my sweats.. so inside the cool room, closing my eyes, then YAWNING!!! and yesss, i cracked my mask.. my mom said if you cracked it, you'll get extra line instead of good skin.. oh noooo...
well, this Angelica baby is amazing.. it's elastic, so you can still do stuff.. even talking, laughing and of course, yawn!! LOL..
this product's made with organic angelica essential oil and angelica water.. which are rich in antioxidant and have a hyper-hydrating effect.. i love everything "Hydrate".. it fits me so well.. and the natural ingredients plus the soothing smell.. what a yummy product!
angelica plants
check out my little video about how i use this mask and my first impression about it...
and then again, whats not to love....
xoxo
PS : if you like to try Angelica Hydrating Mask for free and win more interesting deal, just visit L'OCCITANE FACEBOOK PAGE and LIKE it.. and vote any Blogger Articles on Video you like.. easy and fun!
PS : if you like to try Angelica Hydrating Mask for free and win more interesting deal, just visit L'OCCITANE FACEBOOK PAGE and LIKE it.. and vote any Blogger Articles on Video you like.. easy and fun!
September 22, 2011
new SKIN CARE HAUL : POND'S Microdermabration Kit..
i didn't actually purchase this products on purpose.. i was at the mall and wanted to buy POND'S age miracle day cream coz i love it.. i use it as my daily moisturizer routine.. i applied it just on my cheeks, where the large pores hangin' out, not the whole area coz i'm afraid my pimples gonna breakout or get more oily.. yeah baby, welcome to the nasty world of COMBINATION SKIN!!! ok, back again to the mall, then the SPG offered me two gifts (if i purchase minimum IDR100.000) and i should pick one.. a bag or the Microdermabration Kit.. since i have wayyy to much bag and it'll be useless anyway, i picked the kit instead..
1. microdermabrasion polishing cream
2. the sponge
3. post-treatment glow enhancer...
how to use :
first of all you gotta wet your face.. i washed my face first with pond's natural facial wash.. felt good on your skin and smoothed it after.. nice finish!!
then you squeeze enough tube no.1 to cover the entire sponge area (the round one) then massage it all over your face in round motion (avoid the eye area)..
it's not written on the instruction, but i also massage it all over neck area, because i think neck is as important as face to get the special treatment.. ;)
ok after you finished, rinse you face then dry 'em properly to be ready for the next step..
squeeze tube no.2 about a pea size amount onto your fingertips and apply all over the face (me : with neck also).. apply it from chin to cheek with smooth upward strokes..
this product claimed to do better job on microdermabrasion than treatment at professional clinic.. well, i don't really know if it were trus or not, but in my opinion, for "at home, self kit", this product is worth to try for.. hey, i just spent IDR 100.000 and got this almost free.. LOL!!
ohh and btw, the microdermabrasion polishing cream has this micro crystal stuff that is so smooth, even smoother than The Body Shop vitamin-c microdermabrasion treatment..(so, less painful..)
ok.. that's it for now.. :)
xoxo
NB
August 23, 2011
Bipolar.. just except it..
ok.. today i just got a message from a friend who read my Bipolar blog.. she felt the same way and needed someone to talk to..
her case is about the same as mine.. the problem is how tough is she gonna be.. because to getaway with all pains causes this "error" it needs a long crazy ride..
when i listened about her problems, it reminds me about 2 years ago when it all began.. i was angry, betrayed, wanna kill myself or worse hurt others.. how can i survive all that? well i'm not really sure it'll have the same effects to others, but my purpose is to share my experience.. mmm, to actually tell you guys out there that you're not alone.. i have it too and i'm not rejecting it.. i embraced my bipolar as a gift.. and i'll stay neutral as far as i could.. it's something you cannot remove permanently.. you just have to know how to make peace with it in order to control it..
me too, was alone back then.. so don't worry.. and please don't tell me i cannot tell you "I know how you feel".. coz trust me, i know.. i am pretty lucky because i was surrounded by people who not really care but they took part (even a little) to help me recover.. from the psychiatrist, my boyfriend, my anonymous "room rental" (whom i runaway to back then), even my parents who actually ever thought about letting me join cooking class (costs idr 40 mill) just to get me home.. even though up until now they really never understand why her daughter all of sudden become a "hard ass" and crazy, but i appreciated their effort.. mmm, well at first i just thought they lied to me just to get me home and that's probably true.. but i have my peace now, so i don't really care about un important past.. never mind..
i seek for help (as i said before) because the psychiatrist told me to if i ever thought "death is the only way".. and i thank god for that.. he actually save my life by meeting me up with that psychiatrist.. i called my ex boyfriend, which i hated back then, just because i don't know who to talk to anymore and he was the only one who knew all my trouble with my parents...
ok, enough about old stories...
what i really wanna say is.. this thing called Bipolar, is caused by an exhaustion.. your mind ability to compensate your PAIN is over limit.. why it called Bipolar, Bi means Two.. two sides of mood.. manic or depressed.. in my opinion, caused by doing what you hate (but forced to do) over and over and over for years.. me, for example.. deal with medical school etc for the sake of my dad.. my dad was my only power to survive my depression.. every time i came home and cried my eyes out, i just think about him, then i got my powers back.. but the last two years in med school had been nothing but disappointment.. i cried for help, but he didn't listen.. i told him new stuff about medical, he didn't believe me just as if i was stupid lil' kid who just being cocky, and a lot of another kinds of underestimate stuff.. my powers source was only him, so when he dissapointed me that badly (since i was a kid so it was chronic) i snapped.. then after 7 years of shutting my mouth off, i finally came to him in one morning and told him "Enough.. I can't do this anymore.. I am weak.. I don't have strength to carry on.." then i quit..
sorry always came by late.. there's so many thing i regret in my whole life.. but quitting med school is THE BEST DECISION i've ever made.. i never had a doubt about that one.. no more tears..
to be honest, the duration between quitting school and no more tears was not that short.. took me about almost 6 months to cope with that.. sometimes there was voices inside my head.. "do you really do the right thing?" something like that.. the "What Ifs" running around my head like crazy.. it was made my bipolar even worse, but mmm, no death thought at least.. just manic and a simple depressions.. LOL!!
over this last 2 months, instead of pitied on my "jobless" situation, i think of it as a chance to explore myself more.. rather than sitting around at home just moping the floor, i'd surfed the internet to find what i am really interested the most..
1st, i love to cook.. i thought it was my passion.. but when my mom offered me the school, i just got cold feet and runaway (again)-- means i have no guts to enter that school.. i can't stand the fact that my dad gonna spend another 40 mill for me to be disapointed again.. i was too scared to take responsible for that case.. so i said, NO.. of course my mom was happy.. because she didn't agree about me being a chef at all.. well i like being pastry chef though.. but then again i thought, if it was really my passion, i should've fight for it no matter what.. but i'm not.. so exploring more.. cooking just for fun, for me it wasn't a passion..
2nd, fashion.. god, i LOVE fashion and style.. so i bought all the books (drawing, pattern, sewing etc) then download all videos from youtube about sewing and borrowed my mom's sewing machine for my "project runway".. i spent weeks, awake till am, made few "nice but messy" dress and awesome sketches.. then it occurred to me, i can't sew.. i can imagine the clothes even draw it.. but sew? hell NO!! so, i love fashion, style, etc.. but i can't sew.. so if i wanna have my own line, i need others people help.. need lots of money.. so, not now.. it's going to be my "after making more money" passion..
3rd, makeup.. damn i like em too.. being pretty and representable means a lot to me.. it was the longest "passion" i've been exploring so far.. up until now, i mean.. but i have 1 thought in mind.. i love makeup, but i don't really like putting makeup to someone else (like makeup artist).. i just love make over-ing myself or just guided my friends about which makeup should they wear etc (more of the stylist one).. so still exploring but i didn't know how to make money from this one..
4th, last but not least.. i love taking photograph.. with any camera you name it.. and because of my "pre-wed" pictures fiesta, i needed to edit all the pictures myself.. i also love photo editing but it never officially print it out.. so, i have zero confidence about that hobby of mine.. (another "what ifs").. so when the bridal's editor and owner became stupid all of the sudden, i encourage myself to fix them.. it was once in a lifetime.. to hell with what ifs.. and it turned out AWESOME!! i can't believe it... so then, my confidence going up through the roof.. and then i said to myself.. "i think i've found my passion.. after all this years.. i wanna be fashion/wedding photographer who also edited pictures"....
so, my passion there contains --- makeup (for the models), fashion (of course!), camera, and PHOTOSHOP!!! --- it contains all the things i love.. it's perfect.. thank god!!!
that's why, now i am happy.. i risked my future, because i love my life.. i don't wanna kill myself.. i saved myself.. so can you!! get up and fight.. for your right to speak your minds, your rights to say NO, and your right to live YOUR LIFE..
you can't live your life for others.. please, love yourself first so you can love others more.. just LET GO!! forgive all people that hurts you.. start fresh.. seek for help.. talk to someone you trusts..
i can make it.. so can you...
xoxo
NB
her case is about the same as mine.. the problem is how tough is she gonna be.. because to getaway with all pains causes this "error" it needs a long crazy ride..
when i listened about her problems, it reminds me about 2 years ago when it all began.. i was angry, betrayed, wanna kill myself or worse hurt others.. how can i survive all that? well i'm not really sure it'll have the same effects to others, but my purpose is to share my experience.. mmm, to actually tell you guys out there that you're not alone.. i have it too and i'm not rejecting it.. i embraced my bipolar as a gift.. and i'll stay neutral as far as i could.. it's something you cannot remove permanently.. you just have to know how to make peace with it in order to control it..
me too, was alone back then.. so don't worry.. and please don't tell me i cannot tell you "I know how you feel".. coz trust me, i know.. i am pretty lucky because i was surrounded by people who not really care but they took part (even a little) to help me recover.. from the psychiatrist, my boyfriend, my anonymous "room rental" (whom i runaway to back then), even my parents who actually ever thought about letting me join cooking class (costs idr 40 mill) just to get me home.. even though up until now they really never understand why her daughter all of sudden become a "hard ass" and crazy, but i appreciated their effort.. mmm, well at first i just thought they lied to me just to get me home and that's probably true.. but i have my peace now, so i don't really care about un important past.. never mind..
i seek for help (as i said before) because the psychiatrist told me to if i ever thought "death is the only way".. and i thank god for that.. he actually save my life by meeting me up with that psychiatrist.. i called my ex boyfriend, which i hated back then, just because i don't know who to talk to anymore and he was the only one who knew all my trouble with my parents...
ok, enough about old stories...
what i really wanna say is.. this thing called Bipolar, is caused by an exhaustion.. your mind ability to compensate your PAIN is over limit.. why it called Bipolar, Bi means Two.. two sides of mood.. manic or depressed.. in my opinion, caused by doing what you hate (but forced to do) over and over and over for years.. me, for example.. deal with medical school etc for the sake of my dad.. my dad was my only power to survive my depression.. every time i came home and cried my eyes out, i just think about him, then i got my powers back.. but the last two years in med school had been nothing but disappointment.. i cried for help, but he didn't listen.. i told him new stuff about medical, he didn't believe me just as if i was stupid lil' kid who just being cocky, and a lot of another kinds of underestimate stuff.. my powers source was only him, so when he dissapointed me that badly (since i was a kid so it was chronic) i snapped.. then after 7 years of shutting my mouth off, i finally came to him in one morning and told him "Enough.. I can't do this anymore.. I am weak.. I don't have strength to carry on.." then i quit..
sorry always came by late.. there's so many thing i regret in my whole life.. but quitting med school is THE BEST DECISION i've ever made.. i never had a doubt about that one.. no more tears..
to be honest, the duration between quitting school and no more tears was not that short.. took me about almost 6 months to cope with that.. sometimes there was voices inside my head.. "do you really do the right thing?" something like that.. the "What Ifs" running around my head like crazy.. it was made my bipolar even worse, but mmm, no death thought at least.. just manic and a simple depressions.. LOL!!
over this last 2 months, instead of pitied on my "jobless" situation, i think of it as a chance to explore myself more.. rather than sitting around at home just moping the floor, i'd surfed the internet to find what i am really interested the most..
1st, i love to cook.. i thought it was my passion.. but when my mom offered me the school, i just got cold feet and runaway (again)-- means i have no guts to enter that school.. i can't stand the fact that my dad gonna spend another 40 mill for me to be disapointed again.. i was too scared to take responsible for that case.. so i said, NO.. of course my mom was happy.. because she didn't agree about me being a chef at all.. well i like being pastry chef though.. but then again i thought, if it was really my passion, i should've fight for it no matter what.. but i'm not.. so exploring more.. cooking just for fun, for me it wasn't a passion..
2nd, fashion.. god, i LOVE fashion and style.. so i bought all the books (drawing, pattern, sewing etc) then download all videos from youtube about sewing and borrowed my mom's sewing machine for my "project runway".. i spent weeks, awake till am, made few "nice but messy" dress and awesome sketches.. then it occurred to me, i can't sew.. i can imagine the clothes even draw it.. but sew? hell NO!! so, i love fashion, style, etc.. but i can't sew.. so if i wanna have my own line, i need others people help.. need lots of money.. so, not now.. it's going to be my "after making more money" passion..
3rd, makeup.. damn i like em too.. being pretty and representable means a lot to me.. it was the longest "passion" i've been exploring so far.. up until now, i mean.. but i have 1 thought in mind.. i love makeup, but i don't really like putting makeup to someone else (like makeup artist).. i just love make over-ing myself or just guided my friends about which makeup should they wear etc (more of the stylist one).. so still exploring but i didn't know how to make money from this one..
4th, last but not least.. i love taking photograph.. with any camera you name it.. and because of my "pre-wed" pictures fiesta, i needed to edit all the pictures myself.. i also love photo editing but it never officially print it out.. so, i have zero confidence about that hobby of mine.. (another "what ifs").. so when the bridal's editor and owner became stupid all of the sudden, i encourage myself to fix them.. it was once in a lifetime.. to hell with what ifs.. and it turned out AWESOME!! i can't believe it... so then, my confidence going up through the roof.. and then i said to myself.. "i think i've found my passion.. after all this years.. i wanna be fashion/wedding photographer who also edited pictures"....
so, my passion there contains --- makeup (for the models), fashion (of course!), camera, and PHOTOSHOP!!! --- it contains all the things i love.. it's perfect.. thank god!!!
that's why, now i am happy.. i risked my future, because i love my life.. i don't wanna kill myself.. i saved myself.. so can you!! get up and fight.. for your right to speak your minds, your rights to say NO, and your right to live YOUR LIFE..
you can't live your life for others.. please, love yourself first so you can love others more.. just LET GO!! forgive all people that hurts you.. start fresh.. seek for help.. talk to someone you trusts..
i can make it.. so can you...
xoxo
NB
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